Thanks to everyone who commented on my last post. All the support has made coping through this time so much easier. It is wonderful to be a part of such a supportive community.
How have I been doing? Coping. I guess that is what you'd call it. I find myself often going over the group attack. Then I try to put it away and deal with putting myself back together. Not just putting myself back together but back together in a way where I handle stress better in general. In a way that will give me the skills to deal with such negativity and keep myself intact. I forsee a long drawn out process. As much as I fear putting myself through the process I fear going over the edge more.
I have been knitting. The meditation, healing shawl and the mystery knit. No pictures. They are the same but bigger. The routine of the knitting is allowing time for contemplation.
I have been writing. I have been doing research about creativity. I feel a book, a seminar or something coming out of this research at some point in the next couple of years. I am not sure exactly what but I seem compelled to follow through. I just have to make sure that the intellectual research is not used to shut down my emotional development. A hard task for me.
I have decided to reread the Artist's Way by Julia Cameron . I read through it several years ago without really doing the exercises. Now I think I am ready to use the book the way it is meant to be used. I'm sure that you will be hearing about it!
(2 hours later)
I have just picked up a new journal to start the journaling process needed to do The Artists Way. It took me about 20 minutes to find the book before I went out but YES I did find it! It was in one of my book racks, on it's side and out of sight until I started really digging. Maybe I put it away that way so that I could only find it again when I was really ready to use it. Who knows.
Now, I know there are no pictures, so let me amuse you with a few dog pictures I found at Cute Overload.
Oh isn't Halloween a fun time?